One year ago today, I started journaling about the counting of the Omer. The counting of the Omer, explained by the Kabbalists, are the 49 days that connect Passover with Shavuot. The 49 days correspond to the 49 drives and traits of the human heart. Each day brought the people of Israel one step closer to their election as G-d's chosen people and their receiving of His communication to humanity.
Last Passover, I started a journal "Counting of the Omer and Observing my Concussion"to relate my inner exodus to the different meditations from the Lubavitcher Rebbe. I started it on Day 5 of the Omer.
Below is a picture of what I wrote on Day 5 of the Omer, Hod ShebeChesed:
As I come close to my birthday and have reflected over the Egypt I may have had in me and how I may escape. And that's by celebrating the growth I have made over the past year.
On the 5th day of the counting of the Omer 2018/5778, I wrote how my mind was given less than it needs, and that I began my own exile by learning about concussions with Dr. Engle's book The Concussion Repair Manual.
I have learned several valuable lessons for my life, but in regard to this Omer meditation of Givers and Takers, I have learned that my perspective was limited by my ego. I said my mind is given less than it needs, but that's not how G-d sees it.
In G-d's perspective, the giver and the taker are one. The taker is really giving and the giver, receiving. One year ago I may have thought He was taking me from what I needed, but today, I know He has given me a brighter, more wholesome perspective to Life's Ebbs and Flows.
It took the Jews 1 DAY to get out of Egypt, but 40 YEARS to get the Egypt out of them... What Egypt in our own world can we get out of us?